Christmas break

Oh thank goodness! I had about hit the wall. Everyone had really. We lost one person during the semester. That really sucked, we all loved her and she would've made a great therapist. But the other 19 people made it through... awful, scary finals and everything. So the intense stressful school part is half way done!! My family is probably way over it all by now. All I do is study or think/talk about school. I'm sure it gets old, but they have been really cool about it. My friends have been fantastic about keeping in touch but not making me feel bad for being busy. They have all been wonderful and I am blessed to have them in my life. I don't really have much to say today, just felt like since I had time I should post something. Christmas is coming and so are my parents. Chip is 6 months sober and has left Homestead school. Is trying to get on at the prison in Bledsoe county and maybe change his major to counselling or criminal justice. I have been more co-dependent with him since Christmas break started. Tracking his food, handing him a fitbit every time he takes it off, being a general pain in the ass. Same with Kyla, not completely taking over her school stuff, but reminding/nagging her about everything she needs to do. When I'm busy I am better at staying out of everyone's business. They probably aren't as sick of school as I think. haha. Trace keeps getting in trouble and getting grounded. I keep wondering if we are being too easy or too hard on him, same as I did when Kyla was this age. It's a damn fine line to walk between being so strict they rebel or so lenient they find it easy to go down a bad path. Just praying I don't do anything to mess him up too bad. I've been thinking of my cousin Steve recently. But instead of as my cousin, as someone's child. I keep thinking about my aunt Linda. How that must have felt. If Trace went down Steve's path, I don't know what would happen to me. All the worry, stress, heartbreak, guilt and self blame would be a lot to bear. This is another season in my life that seems to be teaching me more dependence on God. On a much lighter note, me and the kids did another Christmas project this year. It's my favorite so far.