It's Wednesday, so what

I do not know why that's the title today. haha I went to a meeting Monday night. They have formed a "newcomers group" for 3 of us. And quite the over-it-all, why do we have to come to meetings when they are the problem, super angry little group we are! What's funny (not really funny) is we all look like SUCH nice people. Then we speak and you can tell we are barely holding back punching someone in the face. It was a neat meeting to realize, hey somebody gets me. Really, my favorite so far. Like I KNOW that the ones that have been coming a long time have stood in my shoes. But they don't feel like they might punch someone in the face anymore. Like I said I am still learning the difference in "acceptance", "serenity" and doormat. All this "Someone was mean to me and I ignored it, yay me!" Feels like doormat to me. It feels like the person being a dick gets to keep being a dick and you act like they are not. Like you're ignoring a bratty child. So I guess I could try what I did when my kids whined. Every time someone is mean I could just say "Oh I'm sorry, I can't understand you when you talk like that." over and over until they say it nice. That could be fun for me. We are on day 5 of my husband not going to meetings. I'm reading the literature they gave me trying not to let myself be too pissed. I need a sponsor. I need to call someone and ask what the right thing to do is. But I am pissed. I have vented about 2 hours to my friends and I'm probably not supposed to do that either.